Interview with Casey Charles
I am not a fan of the memoir genre, which I find self-indulgent, but a close friend, Azita Osanloo, convinced me that my story made for an important insight into HIV longterm survival, so I undertook the project, which began as an ethno-memoir, interspersing my story with those of others I had interviewed, but the memoir became more self-focused when I found my publisher, Running Wild.
The book is about the dangers of love, or more abstractly, about how the deepest intimacy or connection can lead to potentially lethal disconnection. But beside detailing the narrative of my HIV positivity, Undetectable explores the double stigma of queerness and disease, detailing my struggle to survive in the face of a death sentence that eventually evolves into a fight with opportunistic infection and the side-effects of drug regimens. Along the way, I encounter other HIV longterm survivors around the world.
Survival in the face of serious obstacles, I have learned, can be a messy, frustrating, and troubling endeavor, but out of the physical, emotional, and social strife can come lessons about common ground among people of all backgrounds, about persistence, about the way the self is enmeshed in the political and social makeup of the world. Readers hopefully will come away from reading with a greater respect for endurance in general and more specifically the way HIV has brought people together.
The Trials of Christopher Mann, The Monkey Cages, and Out in the New World (forthcoming in 2027) are three novels that have grown out of my study of gay history and identity, especially in terms of the legal and social roadblocks that have challenged those for whom same-sex love is part of their makeup. All three books involve some form of legal trial, which somehow mirrors the “trials” of queer identity. Christopher Mann dramatizes the coming-out vicissitudes of a law student in San Francisco at the time of the Harvey Milk assassination in 1978. The Monkey Cages sets its love story between student and teacher against the backdrop of the Boise sex scandal of the 1950s. Out in the New World follows a Polish immigrant to the United States in 1886, a young Christian anarchist who is forced to leave the old country because he refuses to marry.
When I began teaching at the University of Montana is the early 1990s, I discovered there was hardly a queer presence on campus other than a student group. I worked with other professors to teach the first gay studies courses, to win same-sex health benefits, to eventually overcome the sodomy statute, and to establish a curriculum and support system for the faculty. This work led to the creation of what is now called The Center, a LGBTQ community organization in Missoula, Montana.
Out in the New World (forthcoming from Rattling Good Yarns Press) tells the story of a Polish immigrant who comes to America in 1882, His idealism about the true teachings of Christ and the egalitarianism of anarchy lead to a series of trials—especially when those ideals conflict with his dedication to same-sex love.
Publishing a book is one thing; gaining readers is another. As my current publisher maintains, the small press culture cannot and should not necessarily compete with the corporate publishing industry, with its agents, advances, and marketing money. The small press allows authors to retain control over the content and quality of their work, but the challenge remains: how to attract readers, how to get readers to share their ideas about titles? Book groups, social media, readings, even self-promotion become part of the journey of the author, however unaccustomed she or he is to extroversion.
A good memoir often involves the story of an interior as well as an exterior or social drama.